In the beginning of January I had a dream that has really stuck with me through a number of challenges that I’ve faced within the few short months of 2024. I believe that God will prepare us for things in advance through dreams, drawing our attention to details we will need to remember, in order to walk in the promises that He has laid out for us ahead of time.
In my dream I was driving a car on the highway after sun down; the road was two-lane like most rural roads are. The problem, however, was that every time I shifted the vehicle into drive, the engine would shift into reverse instead of moving forwards. This was unexpected. I was caught off guard, because drive is supposed to make you move forward, not backwards. It made no rational sense why this function was reversed, so fought it with my understanding of how the vehicle works. Because of this, I had difficulty staying in my lane while shifting between gears, back and forth, back and forth, hoping to figure out how to get moving in the right direction again. I began to swerve into the wrong lane because of the distraction. I hadn’t stopped moving, I was just moving in the wrong direction. I began to see lights in my rear view mirror, and I knew that I was heading in for them. I tried to turn the wheel, but my movements were backwards and my mind was confused. It was like looking into a mirror and trying to make your movements match what you’re seeing, instead they are clumsy and disjointed.
Then I heard: “Shift into first.”
It wasn’t quite an audible voice, but an instantaneous knowing in my mind.
I knew first gear wasn’t the ‘right’ gear for highway driving, but I had nothing to lose at this point. Shifting into first, my trajectory immediately shifted. Slowly and steadily I began to move in forward motion.
After waking, I heard: “When things get dark, shift into first.”
Holy Spirit began showing me that shifting into first meant, shifting into the Kingdom of Heaven in a very literal sense. The Kingdom of Heaven construct seems to be backwards to our understanding of how we need to operate and function in our daily lives. This was the point of the dream. In order to move forward, I needed to get into the appropriate gear.
To describe this by its definition, Gear = a part, such as a disk, wheel or section of a shaft, having cut teeth of such form, size, and spacing that they mesh with the teeth in another part to transmit or receive forced motion (n.).
-Shifting into gear is shifting into a designed mechanism meant to propel us into a forward motion.
-It is a mindset shift
-It is a shifting from one way of thinking into another
-Choosing to do things God’s way: “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the Heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. – Isaiah 55:8-9
“So above all, constantly seek God’s kingdom and his righteousness, then all these less important things will be given to you abundantly.” – Matthew 6:33
God has had my husband Robert and I on a journey of emotional healing. Really, it started a couple years ago when he was healed of a brain injury and likewise experienced a dramatic deliverance. Those miracles completely changed the trajectory of our lives; the things that the enemy had been trying to do to destroy our family began shifting into a powerful testimony and a forward motion propelling us into further healing. That specific breakthrough seemed to usher in a season of deliverance within our home. Over time the Holy Spirit has lead me to a number of resources and the journey has shifted focus onto the emotional healing side of things. He has been emphasizing this as a part of His plan of restoration over 2024.
Wanda Alger put out a video this last week, covering this specific topic. She worded it really well, saying that God is needing to get us healed of the wounds we’ve incurred in our souls over the last number of years – lifetime, in order for us to be able to receive and maintain the glory that is about to hit the earth (paraphrasing).
We’ve all been through difficult experiences. Financial disasters, marriage problems, broken relationships, deaths, out of control health issues, injuries and accidents, being misunderstood, abandoned, rejected and betrayed… these things can cause emotional wounds, otherwise described as soul wounds. While on the surface, they might seem to set us back for only a season; temporarily thrusting us into a depression or state of grief. Usually we get back up and we push forward at full speed as though nothing ever happened. It’s how we’ve been trained, ‘time heals all wounds.’ In doing so we tend to learn to carry the wounds (a broken piece inside of us that never really heals) with a limp, rather than learning to heal. Triggers might remind us of the scars when these things (wounds) resurface. And the emotions that we experience can tangibly feel dark and ominous clouding our vision from being able to see light and truth. We can push forward through the misaligned fractures that resemble formerly severed structures, pretending everything’s fine. Or we can stop and slow down and allow God to step into the process of healing those places that formerly seemed irreparably broken. Those scars, triggers, and handicaps incurred through various storms and trials. He brings light into the darkness and restores our souls (Psalm 23:3). He is a God of restoration after all, and emotional healing is a part of His restoration plan for this this hour.
“And this Light never fails to shine through darkness — Light that darkness could not overcome!” – John 1:5 TPT
One evening while Robert and I were talking over how we’d spent a lot more time recently, stopping when ‘triggers’ arose, utilizing that time in prayer and asking Jesus to take those things…
Holy Spirit told me: “This is shifting into first. This is what stepping into the Kingdom looks like.”
Projects around the house have dragged on longer than usual as we’ve spent more time in prayer together. We have chosen to allow the Holy Spirit to deal with triggers as they have surfaced, giving the things to Jesus in exchange for deep soul healing(s). Through the process I have been amazed at how simple and how effective it all has been. The more that we practice surrendering our time and expectations in exchange for bringing God into the middle of the situation, we experience more healing and unity in our home.
The Kingdom of Heaven isn’t meant to be difficult. Shifting into first may not be first nature, but its the practice of bringing Heaven right where we are with whatever situation(s) we face. I believe that God is telling us that in order for us to continue to move forward in this season, we need to surrender our expectations and purpose to respond to whatever we are facing by ‘shifting into first’, bringing Jesus into that place and seeking Heaven’s resolutions, and out of this place we will find an abundance of provision for all of what we need.